Friday, 17 May 2013



after le spm, I found myself stuck in the situation which involve too much failure. failed to receive le petronas scholarship, failed to be called for UM interview, failed JPJ test. not once but twice! and it does happen, today :(

today I'm feeling really down, didnt talk to anybody for the whole day, crying so hard, didnt eat, didnt do anything, all I wanna do is crying and crying. for the whole 18 years, today is my first time I feel that way. i feel giving up with myself. I dont know what is wrong, where, when, why? :( i feel like I AM A LOSERRRRRRRRRR

my endless spirit already gone, and seems like it will never come back to me, after le JPJ test today, my friend told me to check the UPU, and when I checked, this is what I get.

I dont know what I'm gonna do with my life anymore. All my choices in upu are related to sains hayat and medical but I just choose one related to engineering and I get it for the UPU. Alhamdulillah I was giving this opportunity. But deep in my heart................... :(

Allah, this is too hard for me to accept. My shoulder dont even have enough strength to lift this burden. My eyes cant stop to flow out the tears.

Ya Allah, sesungguhnya aku hambamu yg kerdil di matamu, aku sering alpa.

Tetapi jika ini yg terbaik buatku, kau kurniakanlah aku kekuatan ya Allah :(

Maafkan aku ya Allah kerana aku lemah dengan ujian duniawi daripadaMu :(